Thursday, July 19, 2007

The adventures of finding my dad

How do you write a letter to a man that you don't know tell him that he's your father? I mean, I don't even know how to address it. "Dear, name here." or "Dear, Mr. last name." I mean, I think, "Dear Dad" is a little out of place.

I've written a letter to him telling him who I am, and a bit about myself. I gave him the option of calling me and setting something up. I told him that I want absolutely nothing more than a relationship. I hope he calls me.

Turns out, my pastor actually knows my father. He didn't know, though, that he was my father until recently. He met him while his mother, my grandmother, was dieing. I don't really know anything about him except, that he might have tatoos, and he might be into motorcycles. But, I mean, he might be a child rapist, he might be gay. haha. I don't know. He could be anything. But the tats and motorcycles thing is something that my pastor got from talking to him a bit. Oh! And he loved his mom. That's a good thing.

My father is divorced. I know I have siblings living in like Idaho or Ohio or someplace. It's weird, I always thought of a complete seperate part of my family, but the fact that it actually exists is completely weirding me out. I really hope that I eventually meet them. What's more, I hope they want to meet me. I really hope that they don't hate me, ya know? I don't want to screw up their family, but it seems its already kinda messed up, so I hope they can handle it.

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