Fitting in

Ya know.. as a kid I always dreamed of finding my dad. I never really thought farther then that to siblings and an entire other family. When I set out to find my dad, I wasn't ever even sure that he was going to accept me as his. Needless to say when I met my dad and he welcomed me with open arms, I was overwhelmed with joy and wasn't sure what to think.

Then he told me I had siblings... That terrified me. I was positive that they would hate me taking their daddy from them. They would surely never accept me as one of them. Then I met Katie. Turns out that we share a brain. We are so exactly alike in so many ways that its ridiculous. Talking to the siblings over email, they assured me that they didn't believe in half siblings. It was all or nothing. So I was their sister. Between those emails and meeting Katie.. my fears were calmed slightly. However there was still Dee and Jon to worry about.

Then I got out here to St Louis. I can't realy see myself in Jon and Dee, but we're siblings. Not close ones, but maybe that will come with time. But this entire family- right from my dad's ex and her husband down to the youngest girl- have accepted me as one of their own. I am sharing a room with a thirteen year old girl- my dad's ex's daughter. Her calender had marked "Dina comes" and "Dina leaves :(" on the appropriate days. That is that same level of acceptance I have been experiencing, and I love it.

I love my new family.