Is it strange that I thought that High School Musical 2 was one of my absolute favorite sequels ever put out by Disney Channel? Haha! I thought it was so good. Sometimes I feel like a fourteen year old stuck in a (nearly) 20 year old's body.
Anyway, I'm really feeling strange tonight. There was a part of HSM2 that Troy was totally freaked out about his future. That's what I'm going through right now. I guess I'm just now going through it because in High School, I thought I knew exactly what I wanted. And now, that's all been shattered. While I'm trying to remember that God's got it under control and not to worry about it, it's tough.
I feel like I want to go back to Salem like right now! My grandmother needs me and I feel like God wants me here for right now. But I just want to hop onto the next flight for Portland. I want to walk through the Saturday market. I want to hang out at Applebees with my twenty or so closest friends. I want to sit in on lectures. I want to bask in God's presence 24/7. I know that I'm not meant to be here forever. I don't think I'll be in YWAM forever, either, but I know that I will be going back, at least temporarily. But what am I supposed to be doing between now and then? I want to do the Galilee Project, but that won't start up till Sept. I can't go this Sept... sooo... I just hate waiting around until then.
I feel so restless. I need to get out of here. I've been on the other side of the world. I've lived outside of these four walls for five months. Once, these walls were protection and saftey, but now these walls feel similar to a prison.Ya know what I need? I need a job. Something to get me out of the house. It's nice to make money while doing it.
Any ideas?
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